have you ever felt like giving up on someone, but deep inside, you know that you just can't bring yourself to do that?
that's how i feel right now.
it has sunken into me that it's a no-no between me and you, but yet i'm still hoping. i know it's a total waste of time cause it wouldn't reap any benefits at the end of the day. but hey, i can't help it.
countless times, i thought i was over you, i thought my feelings for you have faded away, i thought by telling people that i'm over you, i would forget you, but boy, i'm so wrong.
the mere sight of you makes me happy. seriously, i've never had a crush this big before. even though i tell myself to just give up on you, there's a voice telling me that there's hope. i don't like that. it makes me cling onto the things i won't get.
god, if we really are fated, show me a sign. if not, i want to meet someone better. i don't want to continue clinging onto false hopes.
god, you're the only one who knows me. and i love you for that.