♥A woman is never sexier than when she is comfortable in her clothes. -Vera Wang

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

it's true that absence makes the heart grow fonder.

when something's around us all the time, we fail to notice their presence.

i guess going to vj has made me realise what's really important to me.

ie, my friends , my family.

those are the two groups of people who give me a reason to live

because honestly, i think i no longer find joy in doing anything at all.

day by day, i dread going to school.

but then i remember, i'm doing this for my parents, for the people i love.

my pillar of strength in vj- Haryani.

even though she too, crumble at times, i guess we can relate very well to each other.

especially during our jogging sessions.

most of the times, we will talk about life and the choices we made so far- whether it was the right one.
but eventually, we will talk about all the great friends we've made so far, especially our secondary school ones, whom we took for granted.

but heys har, even if everyone deserts us, we still have each other.

oh and let's continue our routine of jogging to east coast and unwinding at the breakwater.

i think it helps even if it's temporary.

so just now, i met heyya, tiq and yuS
i guess i missed them alot, especially the times we spent together in mj.

but time has forced me to get over things.

even though they talk about life in mj now (out of which half the time i dont know what they're talking about), i dont mind listening.
cos they will laugh at the happy occurences at mj, and i'm more than happy to laugh along with them.

because one thing i miss the most is laughing. and i miss myself actually.

my high-on-life and enthu self.

i know i'm different now, but i'm still trying really hard to find myself.

but i guess i'll be fine even though i admit that i'm in a permanent state of depression.

life has to go on anyways.

I LOVE YOU,

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

9:59 pm

Sunday, April 06, 2008

speech day on the 4th of april 2008

went to terminal 3's secret recipe on saturday to celebrate my parents anniversary.
i know you're wondering why we didn't go to the siglap one instead.
haha.
i guess it's because my mom wanted to see how terminal 3 was.
oh and guess who i met at t3, and heading to secret recipe as well.
my rockclimbing senior.
i'm always running into him these days.

and i think my mom is worried that i might not get married.
cos the whole time we were there, she was asking me about him.
then when i answered that i dont know much and i dont intend to find out,
she was like "you should keep your options open what. should befriend everyone. nowadays, mesti chope dulu, kalau tak, tak kahwin nanti."
it was weird.
because i remember the totally-against-my-relationship-with-boys mom last year.
and suddenly this year, my parents are always talking about boys.

whatever.
i'm not interested yet.
besides, it doesn't mean that if i like a guy, he will return his feelings for me.

so, i shall keep my pact with haryani
we will only get into a relationship before alevels if ____ and _____ ask us out.
if not, we'll be single until university.
i foresee my being single.
and i like it that way.

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

3:09 pm

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

have you ever felt like giving up on someone, but deep inside, you know that you just can't bring yourself to do that?

that's how i feel right now.

it has sunken into me that it's a no-no between me and you, but yet i'm still hoping.
i know it's a total waste of time cause it wouldn't reap any benefits at the end of the day.
but hey, i can't help it.

countless times,
i thought i was over you,
i thought my feelings for you have faded away,
i thought by telling people that i'm over you,
i would forget you, but boy, i'm so wrong.

the mere sight of you makes me happy.
seriously, i've never had a crush this big before.
even though i tell myself to just give up on you, there's a voice telling me that there's hope.
i don't like that.
it makes me cling onto the things i won't get.

god, if we really are fated, show me a sign.
if not, i want to meet someone better.
i don't want to continue clinging onto false hopes.

god, you're the only one who knows me.
and i love you for that.

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

11:54 am