♥A woman is never sexier than when she is comfortable in her clothes. -Vera Wang

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

i want to forget him.
my best babe likes him too.
so i don't want to fight with anyone over a guy.
it's just not worth my time.
besides, he wouldn't go for a girl like me.
i should really give up on that farfetched idea of befriending him.

AND,
distractions does not equal to distinctions.

so please god.
stop throwing distractions into my face.
i want 4As for As

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

9:30 pm

Sunday, January 27, 2008

I had a conversation with my dad the other day. About my options.

Dad: ''Eh. why you put mj as second choice ahh? why not nj?''
Me: ''You said i could go wherever i wanted what.''
Dad: -slaps forehead ''tak ye jugak ehh.''
Dad: ''kau choose mj mesti sebab buah hati ada kat situ ahh ni..." (translation: i bet u chose mj because you've got a loverboy there.)
Me: ''Eh. nolahh... who seh?"

haha.
if only my dad knew what was in my heart.
i think he'll just make me stay at home for the remaining period of time.
i sure don't want that to happen.
satu hari tak pegi sekolah dah gian sehh.
i dont know what i'll do on the last day of school.

it's okay.
what he doesn't know won't hurt him.
RIGHT?
:))

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

6:12 pm

Saturday, January 26, 2008

road race was lovely, i tell you.
gossip girl was on high alert just now, rest assured.

i enjoyed the after road race thrill, esp the kfc moments.
and the mass dance.
oh so hot,baby.
i won't publish everything here though.
u can talk to me online or text me if u want the latest digs.
LYANA, HUSNA and HAR,
i know you wanna know.
HAHA.

BABES watched 27 dresses just now.
i was melting throughout the entire movie.
the lead was cute and charming.
MAJOR HOTNESS (that i actually forgot about k)
go watch 27 dresses alright, so that you too, can swoon over the lead.

you know you love me

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

5:32 pm

Thursday, January 24, 2008

6 points baby!
alhamdulillah

i will miss mj
i will miss the different people in mj
i will miss heyya
i will miss atiqah
i will miss YUS! (sorry yus. i come back visit you kayy)
i will miss everyone else i've not mentioned here cos i dont want my blog to be a controversy again. i'm trying to forget them, you know.
mj has been one of the best things that has happened to me, really
i will treasure my last 2 weeks in mj

even if i'm in vj,
i wanna come back to visit my friends at mj
i hope i'm welcomed.

har, lyana, husna, thanks for making me smile after what happened at lj just now
I LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS! <333

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

9:39 pm

Monday, January 21, 2008

i'm sorry baby
thanks for remembering
but i'm always crushed by the fact that u don't seem to want to talk to me
and i realised that i still love you ALOT
my love for R>K

NOTE: gossip girl is secretly being emo today. oh. it's no secret anymore

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

9:37 pm

Sunday, January 20, 2008

hello world
i have got dares and missions to accomplish soon
i have got 3 missions to accomplish tomorrow
and other dares, esp THAT one to accomplish soon
i'm looking forward to it actually
it's about the only reason i can find to leave mj

oh
and i'm secretly ~~crushing~~ in love with someone
but he's too sophisticated and untouchable
so i shall just admire him from afar
kalau takde jodoh, apa boleh buat
i hope he'll be happy with that special someone, if he has one
~~and i'm secretly wishing that it's me~~

i feel like i'm gossip girl
cos everyone's updating me on the latest digs in everyone else's lives
plus i do alot of research
very much like gossip girl
so i shall adopt the gossip girl persona for now

XOXO,
gossip girl

you know you love me

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

9:48 pm

Thursday, January 17, 2008

it's either my lucky/unlucky day today, depending on how u wish to see it from.
on my way home, i had mats trying hard to get my number or trying to act friendly.
mats from pasir ris and loyang and siglap and from god-knows-what school.
like at the bus stop waiting for 8 to come, i had these two mats from god-knows-what school, discussing with each other about what to say to me.
ALAMAK
hello.
just because i'm listening to music, it doesn't mean i can't hear you at all.
then can stand beside me lagi.
try harder dudes.
thank god, the bus came at the nick of time. PHEW! because i swear, i wouldn't know how to face them.
and then there were loyang guys who were trying to get my attention, but i pretended like as if i didn't hear them because of my music.

you know, when it comes to guys, i always have something to save me from them.
because honestly, i really don't know how to face them.
i can talk to you as a friend, but i wouldn't know what to say if you asked for my number.
all the guys i know, got my number from someone else.
i've never given my number to any guy, last i recalled.
because i really don't know how to.
and usually, if random guys message to kenal-kenal (in their mat language), i usually would avoid talking in malay.
because i know they will get serious in their miang business.
i'm not the kind of girl who likes to jump into relationships.
i need time lah.
but i can't run away from guys forever right?

seriously, i think i need someone to tutor me on how to face guys
~~i feel pathetic~~

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

6:00 pm

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

i want to be a great shooter so that i will stop missing you.
~~shit,i miss him~~

i realised something.
i like guys who have nice hairstyles.
it's like as if their hairstyle makes them look hot.

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

8:41 pm

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

while waiting for my dad to pick us (har and i) up from school,
we watched the soccer match
watching them play takes my mind off my sorrows
but i'm well aware that sooner or later, i have to decide
but for the time being,
APA NAK JADI-JADILAH

anyways,
i like the way they play
very pro
even if i might be going to vj,
i will always support mj soccer
really
that shall be a pact between har and i
HAR, kau jangan pangseh ehh

and apparently,
my feet is starting to swell
i have no idea why
and it doesn't help that i have to train for road race
i hope it recovers
VERY SOON

har, kena buat research ahh
harap aku ketemui apa yang aku cari
LOVE YOU!
see you soon
<333333

P.S. i got into shooting baby. i'll shoot you down. SOON

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

9:08 pm

Sunday, January 13, 2008

sometimes, i feel that i don't really matter to anyone
especially now
especially to him
in tears, he said he wanted me to find another guy
he said i was too good for him
and i, i was in tears when i found out
he doesn't know how much it shatters
it's like as if he doesn't care anymore
and what if i really am with another guy?

if that happens, i think you will cry forever
because you know you loved me
but you just had to let me slip away
you will regret, i promise you

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

7:58 pm

Friday, January 11, 2008

this week there were MANY MANY highlights

lectures, breaks and more breaks
i think the breaks are too long lah
i always feel like dying
i really have no idea what to do

there was cca trials
i went for shooting
and discovered that i'm really losing my armpower laa
last time, the rifle was light
now, it felt really heavy
this is a sign
a sign that i should work out VERY soon

i went for canoeing too
had to run 2.4 which i was totally unprepared for
and besides, my muscles were aching due to my impulsive run without stretching the previous day
ohh
i think u guys know what happened during that run
banyak dugaan seh
mat mintak nombor lah
mat staring lah
alamak
lagi scenery best punya
it's no wonder my timing sucked
HAHA

i think i really have to work out asap
i don't like to feel unfit/fat
it sucks to feel fat

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

10:26 pm

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

i feel really stressed up and depressed
i don't know why i'm getting so worked up over quite a minor thing
but the fact is, i am

i'm torn
i don't know wth i should stay in mj or leave for vj
my mom wants me to go to vj as long as i qualify for it
so that means if i get 9 (raw) or below, i have to apply for vj
i know it has been my childhood dream and all to get into vj,
but now i'm rather neutral abt it
cos i'm SUPER attached to mj
i really can't bear to leave

but the thing is,
i would be depressed too if i can't qualify for vj
cos that shows that my results aren't good
i feel that i've given my best during o's
and i'd be disappointed if i don't get single digit

god save me
i know vj is good for my future
but mj is good too
but my mom won't buy my story

i had been thinking abt it since monday
just now, i felt my worst
i felt like crying on my way home
cos i'm really pressured by the jc thing and the cca selections
i'd be sad if i don't get into shooting, really

but
i think i feel a little better now after running
cos running really takes my stress away
but i think it will come back soon, the stress i mean

i really hope i get 6 points
so that i wouldn't think twicw abt going to vj
i hope i get into the shooting team

thanks to all those who had been with me, trying to talk to me, trying to calm me down or show support for me during my breakdowns.
thanks guys.
i really love you people alot
<33

i really hope god answers my prayers

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

7:25 pm

Saturday, January 05, 2008

hello
i have a public declaration to make

I LOVE MJ TO BITS AND PIECES!

even though my body feels really weak (that i almost collapsed just walking to the bus stop slowly)
from all the running and running and running and cheering and water and sun
and the fact that i'm so red and dark now that i'm terribly sunburnt

i still love mj
haha

i love mj
i love callisto
i love callisto 5
i love our ever so perky ogls
i love the ever-so-entertaining bimbo club ogls
i like phobos' hot mats

now that i feel so attached to mj,
i'm reluctant to leave, really
but i know i have to, someday
i'll miss everyone loads
<33

i miss aries and 4n melayus!
<333

vintage love♥ ♥ ♥

6:16 pm